My Thoughts on “A Watery Grave”
I felt the sadness of the town; it was everywhere. It was hard to feel o.k. there even during down time. There seemed to be no place to go and it felt a bit stagnant. The people were great, sweet and caring and the homes were beautiful.
The walk was difficult! I felt ill as soon as we left for the walk. The nausea and dizziness grew as we arrived and began the walk. I felt that no one really liked me (the dead) and did not really care to tell me what happened, as if embarrassed or even over it. Grabbing pieces of images and trying to put together the information was too much for me, as the illness became all consuming.
I thought to myself at one point on the stairwell, “why am I doing this? Why am I putting myself through this pain? I just want to go home!” Sometimes this work really tears you apart! The physical drain on your health, the pain that you absorb from the dead on occasion can be all consuming, to think of how many deaths I have experienced and why my body occasionally simply shuts down is no surprise. It has ALWAYS been that way; for physical mediums there is no escaping that aspect of who we are.
Yes, we can protect and we can pull from our tool box items that may help us: ensure, bananas, melatonin and on and on, as well as spiritually protecting ourselves and recovering as much as possibly, but there is no escaping the truth that this work harms us! Physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually; it takes a toll and sometimes there are those moments when all I want to do is run away from it. I have tried many times before to do so. Never successfully, because it is what I am here to do; I love the dead, I love what I do and I want to help the living and the dead come to an understanding. There is no other way.
So, yes that thought came, but then it went and I moved forward. I had to help this girl, I had to understand this house and I had to deal with the evil in the backyard. Because the dead need it and so do the living!
I missed being able at this time to work with living energy via the bodywork I do; it seems to balance me. Working with the dead ONLY absorbing only dead energy is what can cause many issues.
It simply was “one of those days” 
I do believe that Steve and I were able to find ways, though dramatic in nature, to help the living find peace in this situation. The son Ryan did follow our advice. That is what it is ALL about after all!
I found this episode intriguing. Especially when Amy discussed that the house had a personality and the house did not like the family. I wish that Amy would have explained how a building that is made of wood, bricks, etc. gains a personality.
I can imagine that your "gift" of being able to see/hear dead people is both a blessing and a curse! Hang in there, Amy… We really do appreciate and admire your service to others.
amy and steve , i loved this episode. honestly i love every episode. im really into ghost hunting shows and your show the dead files is so different and refreshing. its great to actually have a medium who can speak with the dead instead of chase them around and speculate. i also love that steve really uncovers the history for the viewers instead of relying on evps and obscure shots of " is it a ghost or isnt it". the shows great i hope its on for many more seasons. oh and i loved your work on the lizzie borden house. youall were great. it seemed very plausible everything you said. unfortunately some of the towns people have actually put lizzie on a pedastal and take it personally if someone attacks her. its unfortunate because she is a murderer. but youall were awesome!!!!!!
Hi Amy and Steve, my daughter and I recently came upon your show on the Travel Channel. We are loving it. I enjoy all the history that Steve uncovers. Amy, you are wonderful, you are so intune. I myself have lived in 3 different homes that have been haunted, all the spirits were harmless. The home I grew up in was haunted by the people that had owned it before my parents bought it. The last home my husband I owned was also haunted by the couple that had it built for them here in Florida and that was also totally harmless. I can understand how some people would find spirits scary. Keep doing what you are doing. Pat Hill
Amy!, one of the things you said during your wak through really impressed me in that you said"the house had its very own personality"
I have been lucky in that both of the apartments ive lived in so far have both had loving and protective feelings about them.
People tell me when they come into the apt i live in now how i turned a plain crackerbox apt into a Home! and i think that is very important to the residence.
Amy you are amazing at what you do, it's just so unfortunate that it has to take it's toll on you physically and mentally; but you help so many people out and I can't imagine what it would be like to have your gift. Keep on going girl, you are a strong and caring person!!
I can only imagine how physically and mentally draining the job of a physical medium is. I have nothing close to your abilities — I'm a decent empath and fairly sensitive only, though I have other talents — and if I do any psychic work that is at all "heavy", I eat everything in sight and then collapse in sleep. (I am ashamed to admit it, but I've even fallen asleep with a sandwich in my hand!) You must need a huge number of calories a day to stoke your engine. I greatly admire your willingness to put wear and tear on yourself both physically and psychically to speak for the dead.
The only dead I've ever seen or heard have been family members, and I saw them either as I remembered them in my mind's eye, or as they projected themselves to be; I don't really know which. We have a family tradition of family members' ghosts (on both sides) to help, aid and warn the living family, so I don't think I was at all surprised when I first saw my grandfather a year or so after his death. What I do have too much experience with are non-human entities that, shall we say, don't have the best of intentions. I wish someone had told me when I was nine *before* I went to that slumber party that no good comes of Ouji boards.
That experience more or less set me on my journey.
I understand that as a physical medium, you have to open yourself up to some degree to the dead. How are you able to both do that and not leave yourself open to being preyed upon by a negative non-human entity? Are you constantly using the equivalent of a psychic filter? I do some protective work with energy, but I either have to borrow someone else's or sort of drain my batteries. I know I'd be better off developing a filter; just haven't quite gotten the hang of that one yet.
I'm sure your clients are very grateful to y'all for your help. I have to admit, I find the process fascinating to watch.
Amy, you are the coolest and thanks for the great work you do and allowing the show to give us all a glimpse into what you do and experience. Steve is awesome too and the shows setup is compelling and interesting in the way that it gives two perspectives to the story. Your work is fascinating and I hope that we can all go deeper into our collective understanding of what is out there in the expanded consciousness! Thanks;)